Thursday, June 9, 2011

Can't sleep...

Well here I am wide awake unable to sleep because of a wonderful sinus infection && head cold I have. It's super difficult to sleep when you're unable to breath, I have decided what better time then now to write about the adventures my life has been going through.
I learned about a week ago there are certain things that trigger my anger very easily...such as being told "you don't understand the meaning of a true relationship where you're with someone you think is the one && only for you," "one day when you're in a serious relationship you'll realize you can't have friends of the opposite sex," or my favorite one "hr might've been your best friend but now we're dating && the only female he needs in his life to talk to or be around is me. And once you're in a serious relationship with a guy you won't want him around anymore anyways!!" Bahaha yea these are all exact quotes from the girl Rory is dating who is supsta be my friend...I'm sorry but last time I checked you don't say things like that to friends. Granted yes, she's been married and has two kids already but obviously she missed judged him being her one && only or else she wouldn't be in the middle of a divorce right?? I never in a million years thought I could become as livid as I did that day she told me all that then admitted she didn't want Rory && I to hang out without her because she has insecurities and sometimes thinks id try to do something to ruin their relationship...Really like wow!! Do I come off as that type of a female?? Mind you this girl has known me since I was 4 and she was 6, you would think she knows me better then that. I just don't understand why females have to be so catty and nasty towards other females. I mean this is a perfect example as to why I have very very few female friends I trust, go to for advice or anything like that. But also I get along better with guys due to the fact my parents raised me saying you can do anything a boy can do minus a few things, but don't ever let them say that you can't do something they can. So, unfortunately ima tom boy through and through but I wouldn't have it any other way because I know I can rely on myself to get anything I needa do done.
Anyways, on to the next thing...Justin finally came home from Colorado after 9 months and was only here a day when he got a job so he's staying yay!!! I thought that was gonna be a rough situation after how everything went down before he left, but it isn't really any different then when he was in Colorado other then he stops by every now && then. We don't talk much a few text now && then but nothing like it use to be and im honestly happy that's the case because I had finally came to terms with everything && gotten over being mad && hurt by him that I was scared for him to move back. I didn't want those feelings to come rushing back, but im so proud of myself because for once I dealt with those feelings instead of stuffing them so when he moved back I realized they really were no longer there :) That is a really big step for me cause I normally just stuff my emotions && feelings so when the person I have hard feelings towards comes around it makes things hard on me, but not this time!!
With all of that being said && wrote ima try to watch a movie && get some sleep cause I feel soooo tired again finally lol!! Thanks for listening to me ramble && being interested in what's been going on in my non exciting life :)
P.S. this sickness couldn't have came at a worse time because I was supsta be on a beach in Cali today :( but im sick instead!! There's always next time though :)
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